on the day you left me
i cleaned up my room
and blasted the music so loud
that it shook the ground
i wanted to drown out the hurt
but the louder i turned on the music
the louder my pain yelled
it so wanted to be heard
and i threw everything around
and broke too many things
till my room was a bigger mess
then when i started
and i sat against the wall
on the ground
broken and crying my anguish out
my heart swelling so much
that it was stuck in my throat
with all the old emotions
that my memories pulled out
for to me preview and review
it's a private movie stuck on repeat
airing just for me in my head
the pain so hard and so strong
that it's like someone has gripped my insides
and ripping at me
with all the malice in my heart

it's been a week, a month, or possibly a year
since the day you left me
i can't exactly say
and it still hurts just a little now
i still say i love you
and also a little bit of hate
i stuff my fist in my mouth
blast the music
sit against the wall
on the ground
and cry
just a little
just a little bit